laughing the loudest might not mean the happiest

2012-01-04T22:39:00.001+08:00

The euphoria seems surreal.

..
..
Wait, I forgot. It really is.

2011-12-16T17:57:00.001+08:00

Falling sick during the holidays is sucha torture, wasting my holidays away :(
My holidays are also packed with work which I dread so badly. Sometimes I just feel tt too much commitments during work isnt a good thing after all.
Need a break. :(

2011-12-04T19:11:00.003+08:00

Brb till aft MST :> 09/12/2011

2011-12-04T19:11:00.001+08:00

I always thought that my life wasn't perfect. But I couldn't find anyone's life that is perfect too.

2011-11-14T23:07:00.001+08:00

fucking stress.

2011-11-13T23:59:00.001+08:00

Does your "take care" means the end of us? I hope I aint reading too much into it this time round.

i'm strong but who am i kidding

2011-11-11T23:21:00.001+08:00

totally feeling like a fool these few days. so hard to bear with what im feeling.

Halloween weekends.

2011-10-30T00:35:00.000+08:00

So... J, F and I went to town for interview today and xfingers it'll go well. Town started raining and J & I went to school for trg. Sakura buffet aft trg. Ttly gain back those calories I lost! :(

haha everybody so cute.
busy week coming right up good9! :)

2011-10-26T23:12:00.000+08:00

Yknow. Thank god its deepavali. hehehe

Finally a holiday to take a break off from school. Ever since the new term started I dread everyday of school thanks to the lectures/tutorials. Tons of presentations coming right up. its only the 2nd week of school and there's 3 presentations due 4/5 weeks later.

.......

Mad boring.

Expo is next week.

.......

So basically my schedule is packed max and i've got PE for extra module. and my pe teacher is my coach so...

......

YES LA ......

HAHAHA GOODNIGHT :)

2011-10-25T21:42:00.001+08:00

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2011-10-19T21:52:00.000+08:00

Went back to HQS today aft school & talk crap with shi2. Haha hilarious sessionnnn love her so much <3 hehe. Oh btw xfingers my parcel don't go missing ;( it's a burfday pressieeee.
goodnai nic wna use da computer now. :>

2011-10-17T20:54:00.001+08:00

new nail colour for school. first day of school suck btw. time t sleep goodnai

2011-09-27T01:49:00.003+08:00

the older batch <3

Lastly, handsome boy! :) Hope you do well in everythg you do!
finally one expo down phew. end of events for the meantime :)

SUDDEN CRAVING UGHHH

2011-09-22T01:10:00.000+08:00

pictures credit t google.com

everyone should catch this :)

2011-09-08T01:25:00.002+08:00

via tumblr.com

Vans

2011-08-29T18:45:00.003+08:00

(All from vans.com)

2011-08-27T04:03:00.000+08:00

please tell me how these cakes wont make your day?
(all from tumblr)

headegg

2011-08-20T00:48:00.003+08:00

getting mad with my studies n....
you you you.
seriously i wish you're more contented with what you've now and not be such a busybody to interfere with stuffs not related to you. yes stuffs that are entirely NOT related to you @ all! I really hope you understand that its not my job to do this and im just helping you (all) but instead of being appreciative, you're being so unreasonable with your requests. not once not twice and im not the first one who feel this way with your fup attitude.
hence before i start throwing contacts @ you to do the stuffs yourself...
know your limits.

2011-08-13T03:29:00.001+08:00

anyw im here t post poly isnt fun kthxbye

2011-08-02T22:36:00.002+08:00

time flies. it's alr aug and my sem1 will end this month. frankly speaking, i can't wait for holidays. after all this shitz these few months, i think i need a break off from everything. i miss mc girls a lot a lot, n i can't wait for our msia trip. :')

2011-07-24T19:07:00.002+08:00

youthcup 2011 officially ended. 3rd for mc!

2011-07-14T22:43:00.000+08:00

left merely 2 more games and this season is gonna end.
dont want this season to end so badly.....

2011-07-04T20:41:00.001+08:00

how to keep this hanging on when it still hurts so bad

2011-06-26T22:28:00.001+08:00

School is gonna reopen tmr, and;
Team MC, youthcup, Team SP, Polite cup, and studies are gonna be my priorities.

chin up

2011-06-20T02:44:00.000+08:00

b4 I sleep, i conclude my day is almost perfect. :) I scored a 3point @ a crucial period of time and my team won, the surprise for jol and deb was flawless, and i had a family dinner w my loves.
I ought t be happy. goodnight.

2011-06-19T17:53:00.001+08:00

my v cute team and..
MC HUAT AH :)

2011-06-08T01:22:00.000+08:00

thankyou deb.

mst gonna be over soooooon

2011-06-01T23:47:00.001+08:00

drinking my koi studying my pom 830 paper tmr im dead. hehe.

2011-06-01T10:35:00.001+08:00

it's june da first. Half of the year is gone. Im still struggling w my mst and i wish monday arrives instantly..
#junewish- get over someone i should've long ago, mc top 4, pass all mst.

2011-05-29T22:14:00.000+08:00

So short summary of the week:
1. ruined your impression of me again and probably we wont talk til the pigs fly.
im still waiting though.

2. youthcup u17 rocksocks we didnt draw lots. hai. 3games victory to top4 lai jiayou mc.

3. mst tmr, huat ah. havent finish studying......... cant wait for holidays.

2011-05-26T02:01:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday me. happy birthday ym. :)
Still wish that you'll remember it's my birthday, still wish that you'll wish me a happy birthday. I didnt wish for you when I blew those candles on the cakes. cuz I know the wishes will be wasted, you won't be back anyw. but you're still what Im wishing for everyday.
Goodnight earthlings.

2011-05-24T23:15:00.002+08:00

We lost but we gained.

2011-05-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

WE CAN MAKE IT.

2011-05-22T01:13:00.001+08:00

everyone will be so overjoyed when their birthdays are around the corner. Im not. I mean i did when it was beginning of the month, where counting down to the birthday seems very enjoyable, but not now.
now tt my birthday is nearing, i realise that i live another year in vain agn.
've never done anythg t make myself feel proud.

2011-05-21T23:38:00.004+08:00

I really hope that one day you eat back your words and regret what you said. fucking hate you.

2011-05-20T00:55:00.003+08:00

Had dinner with clique @ bedok 85. Not with everyone but it's enjoyable. thanks lovelies for your presence <3
Back then it was you. Now it is still you. Life's unfair. I never get what I wanted cuz you're all I wanted. @ least you're happy now and i thank god for that.

2011-05-18T22:50:00.001+08:00

hehz new diy product waiting to try out sooon ^^

2011-05-17T23:26:00.002+08:00

Today is public holiday (again). May is definitely enjoyable with all the holidays and school holidays starts in few more weeks time! :> Gotta study hard for mid sem test and xfingers I can find the time to do so. need to and have to.
Anyw life's a bitch. Dreading school ever since it'd started and still dreading it. Hate morning lectures esp those 8/930 in the morning where I've to squeeze in the train, it's really getting on my nerves. Gaah skip that and I realise time flies.. Youthcup is nearing and i aint prepared........

I know you're doing good.. But I hope you know I miss you although you wont know. Xx

2011-05-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

School is very boring and mid sem tests are around the corner and also youthcup im so busy like a beeeee i havent use punctuation marks omg?
Life's like boring everyday end school @4 plus 5, training on tues and saturdays and imagine saturdays gonna have 2 trainings consec i think i'll be so tired by the end of youth cup :<
whatever whatever all the way minchong~

priorities

2011-05-03T23:01:00.001+08:00

school. homework. work. training. team. basketball.
youthcup soon sigh train harder!

2011-04-13T00:25:00.002+08:00

My secondary school life aint the best altho most of my friends claimed that theirs were. I felt relieved once I ended my sec school life. After an incident happened on 2011's april's fool, I really really really appreciate my colleagues. I may have only know them for less than half a year but I really felt a bond among all of us.
And baobei, if you happen t chance upon this someday somehow, I've never blamed you when I cried on a day that was supposed t be joyful. Your words ain't the reason why anyw. I've never wanted t give you any problem as whichever first day of events always scrwed up. Cheeeerrrrup and dont be guilty anymore. I was never angry @ you before, never upset with you before, never hate you before. <3 hugs.

2011-04-08T01:40:00.002+08:00

7/4/2011 happiest day of the year.
Firstly cgirls won uss with a score of 52-53. close fight and i dont regret going down @ all. was rlly contemplating 'cuz i was late but im soooo glad i went down. good fight girls, work hard and bring glory for the school :)
Secondly, of cuz nothing but pay finally banked in after one day delay. Hooraaayyyy.

2011-04-07T02:20:00.003+08:00

Was watching that particular video which reminds me a lot of you. you aint in there, but somehow i rmbed that very day i was still texting you, being teased by them, but was in bliss because you appeared. I rmbed every single thing about that day suddenly. Your presence dont mean so much to me now, but i was amazed looking back at how fast time flies and how we've changed. I always told them you dont mean anything to me now, not @ all, but those who understands me well enough will know what I meant.
I hope you're still doing well. Do stay this way.
xx,
shuliannan

2011-04-05T22:47:00.000+08:00

Dont disturb me dont irritate me go away!!!!

2011-03-31T16:18:00.001+08:00

friendly against jjc tmrw. expo event from 1st til 3rd.
april foooooool lets see who t fooooool ^^

dont stop believing

2011-03-30T00:45:00.003+08:00

I've a very cute sp team, very loving coworkers, exciting life. I'm balling @ least once a week and now having so many friendlies haha. I'm looking forward to work everyday + expo event coming right up whootz.

I love my life now and Im glad I hadnt lost hopes when times are bad. :)

p

2011-03-19T17:54:00.003+08:00

you seemed to be living your life very interestingly every single day, but i wouldnt make it look like i lost out t you. mine will be interesting without you too. however everything suckx after so long i still miss you.

2011-03-19T16:25:00.000+08:00

training work friendly training work. my life is boring.
team sp huat ah.

saudade

2011-03-08T00:42:00.002+08:00

time flies and it's gonna be another eleventh again. the good part is i no longer miss you everyday but the bad part is i still miss you afterall. contradicting is'nt it? i couldn't understand why too, after so long it's still you. i no longer read back our texts. i thought i made it somehow but until that day i saw something which made me heartache max i could finally understand what i've been feeling all these while. i no longer want you back anymore becuz it won't happen, but sometimes i still wish for that to happen. ah craps crapz. hope you're doing fine and yeah, hang on strong.

f

2011-03-04T22:11:00.002+08:00

sup, i've been rlly busy with work and i finally have a taste of working-everyday-despite-it's-off-day. it's rlly horrible and tiring. x.x needa charge myself and get rdy for it fair. boomz. i miss bluyou.

2011-02-15T02:05:00.003+08:00

Life's been pretty boring. No cny mood when Im back in Sing I don't know why. So basically I'm working at least once a week to kill time off at night. The pay's goooooood and the job is easy once you get the hang of it ^^
So last week my life is boring. 12th finally met up with (first photo). It's quite an experience running up and down a mall in maxidress to get a balloon. (it's then you realise how long you didnt run/ball and you're getting tired so easily hewhew) But you know the ultra wide smile you get when you see her smile is nothing but joy. ♥ to you sylvia. me + jy always here for you~ :) 14th whereby it's valentine's day, I spent it off rather interestingly by catching 2 bdiv game at csh and bas. Cool or not. Received merely one present but it's sooo heartwarming. :) thanks jy for your sunflower ♥.
xx

2011-02-09T15:59:00.000+08:00

Msia is good. Msia is really good. I wish I can stay in msia and not come back singapore to face all shitz.
ahh my life in singapore is fucking boringggggggg.

.

2011-02-02T01:53:00.002+08:00

will be going for a short holiday/getaway to msia. Like finally and it's smthg I've been looking forward to since o's ended. my life in singapore is pretty fucked up and as much as I will miss my lovelies back in singapore, i still have to take that short break and catch a breather. i will come back stronger.

:)

2011-02-01T01:40:00.002+08:00

It's rather heartwrenching seeing how stressed up you're, and how desperate you wish things become more positive. I'm not in your shoes but I closed my eyes just now and prayed for the best for you. I hope god answers my prayers so that your life will be much easier. chin up.

2011-01-31T16:55:00.000+08:00

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

best ♥

2011-01-31T15:32:00.001+08:00

we love far east yoghurt and i love her

2011-01-28T01:54:00.002+08:00

You ought to look @ the impact you left on me. 2 words: extreme torture. & i hate telling every single one ' i miss _'.

2011-01-26T19:36:00.003+08:00

firstly I got posted into my seventh course and I was so disappointed fuck shit. secondly you said I was lousy because I wasn't posted to np you fucking said I was lousy thanks! thirdly you attitude me like I committed a crime. Fourthly I know you didnt did it on purpose why cant you frigging apologise but you screamed @ me wdf you want?!
SO YOU FUCKING THINK IM LOUSY IM NOT IN NP I DONT HAVE AS MUCH A'S AS YOUR FAVOURITE SON IM STUPID IM USELESS IM GOOD FOR NOTHING RIGHT. ONLY TO YOU YOUR SON IS MOST HANDSOME OF ALL BECUS YOU NEVER PRAISED YOUR DAUGHTER BEFORE. YOU NEVER DID. I DID SCORE SO MUCH BETTER THAN HIM BUT YOU DIE ALSO WNA COMPARE HIM WITH ME COMPARING THE NUMBER OF A'S HE GOT. YOU KNOW ALL THESE WHILE I FELT I WAS LIVING IN LIVING HELL I DONT KNOW HOW THE FUCK I SURVIVED. ALL THESE WHILE IT WAS DAD WHO WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME. DAD ENCOURAGED ME BY SAYING ONE A'S I GOT MEANS 50DOLLARS. BUT YOU COMPARED ME WITH HIM INSTEAD YOU DIDN'T EVEN PRAISE OR AWARD ME BUT YOU TORE ME DOWN THE VERY DAY I GOT MY RESULTS.
YOU KNOW THE MOMENT I THINK ABOUT YOU SAID I WAS LOUSY JUST NOW I COULD REALLY BREAK DOWN.

FUCK. MY PRESENCE IN THIS WORLD IS SO NOT NEEDED. I HATE MYSELF I HATE MY LIFE

2011-01-25T16:22:00.000+08:00

The sky feel me & start crying.

2011-01-24T22:43:00.000+08:00

GET WELL SOON.

2011-01-23T21:16:00.003+08:00

I'm numb. When I see you, my heart hurts but the pain is bearable.
I'll be okay.

I'll

2011-01-23T15:50:00.001+08:00

Come on lian, be strong and brace the storm. I will be happier at the end of the day.

2011-01-22T00:36:00.002+08:00

These few days were bad. Life sucks.
When you said bye to me, others thought I was on cloud nine, but I tell you here. I wasnt. My heart sank instead.
Phone got rather laggy recently. So each time I accidentally scrolled up in my inbox, your messages whereby it was sent 2 months ago appeared.
I must have gone crazy.

2011-01-20T00:32:00.002+08:00

Actually. ignore my past few posts la i wrote resignation letter and intend to quit my job since im down with 3days mc anyway..
And I actually planned lotsa matches for me to watch yay i'm gonna enjoy my holidays eat sit sleep grow fat. kinda feel like playing ball whenever i see juniors playing matches but gotta wait till cny before trg resumes hai you say sian or notttttt?

bottled up all those feelings i will erupt soon

2011-01-18T23:26:00.001+08:00

ironic. You know whats ironic? that is i can show how badly ill i'm, how angry i'm, how sad i'm, how whatever shit i'm, you just wont give a flying fuck about it.
You finally made me understand how worthless i'm in your life. Or probably everyone's life. period.
-
Girls' performance today made me think of bdiv'10.

2011-01-18T01:55:00.002+08:00

One expo event's down and another one coming right up. I swear I had lotsa fun (despite maybe having to deduct pay) with my coworkers and they're really fabulous people. ;) can blame no1 if I really have to end up having a lil lesser pay than expected but stillll... I hope nothing goes wrong. expo will be my second home for the month I guess?

still holding onto the slightest possible hope. Trying to give it up by using all means. Really. But failed.

2011-01-15T09:12:00.000+08:00

why?

2011-01-13T23:22:00.001+08:00

work event starts tmrw I'm gonna slog my life out and quit thinking about you. I miss you exceptionally lotz today I must be mad. Like seriously why do I think of you so much when you will never know? Fts plz

2011-01-12T09:52:00.000+08:00

Often stare at the phone and wished that you will change your mind and come back to me.. But I know I'm dreaming. It's okay to dream right, you can't possibly stop me. Just that I've to be responsible for the pain I might get though.

11111

2011-01-12T00:49:00.002+08:00

as much as I wished the above date will be fabulous and memorable, it's the otherwise. firstly work is fking boring I swear I cannot take itttt :/ i kept wna fall alsp over there my god.. Hope this event get over asap. Secondly I vomit like merlion and hangover suckzz. Imagine hangover + work = major breakdown. Lastly I'm sober but you ignored my words like as though I'm drunk but it's okay though.
I miss you and it's a month since you left.

2011-01-09T19:09:00.001+08:00

My presence ain't important anymore.

2011-01-09T02:49:00.001+08:00

Fought with myself as I could no longer find the courage to send you even a goodnight text. Still, goodnight to you every single night.

0901

2011-01-09T02:04:00.002+08:00

so yesterday, met yx jy went down to sp and blablablaz. open hse stuffz. then cabbed down to mjr for roundrobin. dinner @ cck. okay. tired. leave me alone.

0801

2011-01-08T22:56:00.000+08:00

what hurts the most is knowing that the one you will be there for isnt me.

2011-01-06T23:42:00.001+08:00

I'm leaving.

Goodnight.

2011-01-06T20:58:00.002+08:00

So.......
10th jan will be release of results. I could actually feel the fear now and so afraid I'll be disappointed with my results. But at the same time retaining seems good since the bdiv lots seemed so much better than last year hai tempting to play bdiv again. Miss the girls soooooooooooooooooo much, miss our madness and every single thing we shared <3.
Anyway, all the best bdiv'11. Seize the chance. Do us proud.

Oh today while I was waiting @ the bank, the air freshener smelt like what I smelt in agnes b.................

2011-01-05T23:39:00.001+08:00

christmas gna be over soon. 12days flies. wish did not come true too. goodnight all.

2011-01-04T21:06:00.000+08:00

Comparing now and then will definitely result in heartbreaks. I couldn't find any more reasons for us to stay in contact anymore, do we? goodluck with your life.

2011-01-02T17:58:00.002+08:00

Our photos are black and white and it signifies we're over. However, there's something that would still made me smile whenever I look at them-- your radiant smile. :)

So where're you?

2011-01-02T01:21:00.004+08:00

Each time I got disappointed I lower down my expectations and till now I no longer expect anything.
--
--
--
@ times, we text a little. Even though I know this won't last for long, it still made my day.It's merely less than 10days to a month. Time still flies with and without you. Merry 9th day christmas.

2011

2011-01-01T12:31:00.001+08:00

so afraid the moment i wake up things change again. Really afraid sighz.

each year with the same new yr resolutions becuz the previous year's ones dont get to accomplish thus accumulated till the next yr. the only exception this year is probably you.

Happy new year all. Xo

28/29november

2010-12-31T00:54:00.002+08:00

Early fifi & lian. checked in. t02. tamp. koi ^^. Tamp mall. Cotton on. Human model. Toys r us. Bored. Huge hershey bottle piggybank. 49$ earpiece. Toilet. Tamp 1 diva. Bus to downtown. Chittychatty. Muddy everywhere. Saw nat. T02. Watched tv. No show to watch. 100 crunches. Mad shit. Yvon arrived. Mad girl on the loose. Jy jarren locked out. Wang wang. Hungry us. Janjan. 10pm dinner. Gastric pain. Nat soh/ng. Hugz. Satay sauce. Hawker closed. Just asia (????). Dinosaur years to order food. Last customers. Hokkien class. Irritating jy & yvon. Birthday girl arrived. Mad fifi&yanni on the loose. Gastric attack till gonna die. Photo. T02. Photo spamz. Jol. Photo spamz. Double broke down. Disco ball. Truth & confessions. B's. Happy birthday nat s. Cheers. Vodka. Jol's Double cheeseburger meal. Straws. Games. Drinks. Talk cock out. Bedroom. Squeezyeezy. 3hr sleep. Music spam. Early morning shopping. Ntuc. Aunties. Foooooooood. $1 trolley. Earthquake. Dillydally. Disco ball. Music spamz. Swim for merely 30min. No tan:(. Cold shit. Photo spamz. Yvon hair salon. Arrival of jh jg jm z. Lost bet wf yvon :(.bbq food. Start fire. hotdogz ^^. blackjack. More hotdogs and 7up. Stare into blank space. Man man de deng dai. It's so fluffy im gonna die. Ehub. Lost kid aka road retard aka fishy. Ntuc. Cupwalker. Irritating fish auntie nag nonstop. More foooood. BBQ. Lost appetite. Photographer. Jumpshot. Gift xchange. Exciting yvon's pressie. Christmas gift. Beach. Casual talk. So near yet so far. Bubbles.Cheers. Couples vs lightbulbs. Quarrel non stop. Marshmellow bbq. Kaven's butter marshmellow :<. bus stop. Bus. Bye. Walked back. Showered. Drinks. Games. Disco ball, music. Heavy head. no fun anymore. Sleep. Da bao. Cold. Rashes. Itch die me. 1030 check out but late. Packed up. Byebye chalet'10.

So much fun during those few days. ^^

Annual chalet.

2010-12-31T00:46:00.002+08:00

2010-12-27T22:22:00.001+08:00

" I'm afraid of losing you.
I'm afraid of you doubting my love.
I'm afraid of you not knowing how important you are to me."

Autumn's concerto

2010-12-26T21:18:00.000+08:00

"If I could choose, I would rather forget the road home, than to forget any of the little details about her."

2010-12-26T21:01:00.001+08:00

can i be the reason for your only exception?

Christmas day

2010-12-26T16:40:00.003+08:00

Nothing in my life that is interesting worth to remember. prolly 'cept for clique.
It'd be better if I still have you in my life. Tata.

Oh, softie in my lolly, fabulous sweet. Cuz it reminds me of you.

2010-12-25T11:54:00.003+08:00

All of them spammed asked me if it's gna be worth it 'cuz they dont find it so. I defy their advices & still purchased it becuz it caught my eye & christmas only happened once in a year.
I smiled & I told them saying, ' I don't know, but I hope it is.'

Nothing's gna affect my mood till 12days christmas is over. I can do it. I will do it.

merry christmas xx

2010-12-25T02:22:00.002+08:00

work ytd(fri) in the morning. Very slack but ending i had t shift quite a lot of stuffz, my wrists are twisted again suck. Bozz drove me back home, prepared & met jh jy @ town. From plaza sing to ion to find jx then to isetan. Trained down to cityhall, photo spamz and lovelies had hk cafe. Saw zm & merry christmas.
Photos tmrw, im tired now. Gnight.

2010-12-24T18:01:00.000+08:00

I'M SURVIVING VERY WELL ALONE.

2010-12-24T00:02:00.002+08:00

" You don't need to apologize to me, because it's no use to apologize. What's gone is gone. The harm has been done. Apologizing won't turn back time, and it won't let what has happened to go away. "

Luvz

2010-12-23T22:14:00.003+08:00

2010-12-23T14:07:00.001+08:00

A lot of things just made me realise how insignificant I'm. I'm not blind, dumb or mute, neither am I ignorant. I'm pretty observant. I know what's going on.

2010-12-23T12:44:00.001+08:00

The moment I realised I didnt bring my attendence sheet home I started panicking, afraid I might lose it & my pay will be gone. Not becuz I cant go shopping, but becuz my hardwork for a christmas present will go into the drain.

2010-12-23T01:03:00.002+08:00

I can't help but question myself again.. Am I really not good enough to deserve you? Don't play anymore mind games. I'm tired.

Christmas in 2more days time, not looking forward to it, not looking forward to it...
anyw happy 16th birthday jerica luvvvz.

2010-12-22T20:03:00.003+08:00

Many asked me not to pin any more hopes on you and lower my expectations so I won't end up disappointed. I tried though. Xfingers I won't get stood up next week, I really hope I don't.

2010-12-21T23:30:00.003+08:00

Short yet fruitful meet up tgr wf jar jean & jy to get stuffs needed for chalet and a time-like-not-enough-hor catch up. <3Okayyy enough of break. work's tmrw.
Each time I talk/think about you, I'll smile. I miss you. But I hate posting on twitter, facebook, blogging on lj/ blogger saying I miss you. Cuz' you won't magically appear outta no where. Do you miss black& white? I think they do.

assumed assumptions

2010-12-21T03:00:00.003+08:00

1-I suddenly remembered then late @ night I used to complain Im so full I couldn't sleep but end up falling asleep watching tv halfway.
2-I hate assuming although I always assume. But I never assume the good things. I always think ' it can't be me anyway.', sigh, and close that page. cuz I can't possibly ask ' hey that is for me right,' when i know it myself 99.99999% of everything isn't for me. That O.OOOOOOOO1% chance was.. Way too slim.
3-My phone has been pretty quiet recently, often ring up to one or 2 txts of close friends, but never yours. I'm learning to get used to it. However @ times when I opened a txt, I looked away & prayed it was yours before I turned back to look @ my phone and feel dejected it wasnt yours.
I'm fine, much better alrdy. what about you?

2010-12-21T01:34:00.001+08:00

the time now is 1:35am. Im lying on my bed taking a break now. I sat for few frigging hours doing 2 cards, one birthday & one christmas. My back hurts. The floor is in a huge mess, I don't wna clear up. I wna sleep. My finger hurts from twisting those copper wires used for the latter. so afraid my effort will go down into the drain I really am.
Okay last lap.

2010-12-20T01:26:00.001+08:00

I'm not sure if it's worth it, i hope it is.